I am not defined I am abstract...

I have seen tears, in my fearless eyes,
And sometime they are dry even in deep pain,

I have seen a smile on my face,
Even if there is no reason.
And sometime a dread silence on the face,
Which scares me as well.

Sometime, I feel so alone,
Even when, I am surrounded by many.
And sometime, I like to be being alone,
Because, I do not like to loose my true identity.
I am not the one, who is between the people.
I am the one, whom even I don't know.

Sometime, I cry for one's love,
Wish if one could be there for me.
Though, I know this is love only,
Which leaves everyone crying.

Sometime, the word "orphan" doesn't let me sleep.
But next morning,
I start planning for my comfort and luxury,
Don't know, how to kill the devil inside me?

Sometime, I sleep empty stomach,
To feel the hunger one lives with,
And sometime I ask for better taste.

Sometime, I search for myself,
Though I know, nothing lasts forever.

I am like myself,
and sometime unlike too.
Don't know if I am one,
Or there are many resembles to me.
I am known to others,
But, with an unknown Identity.
Don't know who am I?
There are many, who are mine,
But, don't know if I am their.

I am not defined, I am abstract....



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Certainty in Uncertain Life...

Like every other ordinary man, I live my life in the same manner as they do. Always put alarm in the mobile and fortunately it always rings but every morning the first thing what I do is, ‘put the alarm off’ obviously fell asleep again, I have been practicing it for many years. I am like you, like him, like them and like every other person. Always running late to reach office; rarely, I take my breakfast at home but yeah I wrap that in the foil and most of the time leave it there in the kitchen only, surprisingly. Guess, what I do in my office everyday? Like every other person, always try to put the work behind and start executing my personal plans; I think, office is the best place where we can really execute our personal plan. Who gets time at home? There are so many things to do; yes all nonsense things I’m talking about; Ahh… please don’t mind it. But yeah, I do spend my time in office mentally and physically as well. Guess what? I had heard of this word when I was kid, even all my ages but where I learned of doing that, its again, one and only ‘my work place’, ‘my office’; I learned here doing ‘back biting’. The good thing of doing this is ‘you don’t need courage to do this’, isn’t it? None of any animal has this ability or capability of doing this ‘the most entertaining’ and ‘the most adventurous job’. May be people take it in the other way but let me tell you one thing, by doing ‘back biting’ we live our freedom most, I guess. You know what, you can say anything which just comes in your ‘mind’; I precisely call it ‘really very creative act’; I have met many master of it, who does it so brilliantly and with full of perfection. Sometimes, I feel like, if Osho Rajneesh would have been alive, he would have given his philosophy on “From back-biting to Super-consciousness”, poor guy, he lost that opportunity.

By living in the country like India, I have learned of doing one more thing ‘bargaining’. I think there cannot be any other country, where this term ‘bargaining’, have been used most efficiently. Since we took birth, we have always been doing ‘bargaining’. Bargaining for delivery charges, medical bills, first biscuit our mom put in our mouth and blah blah blah. We are real professional in this area and we use this practice at our work place everyday.

One lesson which we never learned is, ‘loyalty’. Like every other ordinary person, I have never been loyal to my workplace and I have never been loyal to my office. I’ll suggest never to do that because if one does, one dies (not really **smile**). But remember that, the one who wins the battle is the one who is loyal to his ‘work’.

Let me tell you clearly, being an ordinary man, you will die like that. People say, only ‘death is certain’ but I say ‘life is uncertain’ and that because we never understand meaning of our life, value of our life. The uncertainty is inside us, we do not have control on our emotions, thoughts and so our acts. ‘An uncertain act definitely results uncertain’.
God has gifted every human being to make things certain, out of this ‘uncertain life’ and before the ‘certain death’.


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Life & Life's Purpose...

In last few days there have been so many things happening around me. They all were related to our life and our “life’s purpose”. Have you ever asked this question to you? There are very few people who have ever asked this to themselves; and one who even asked this to himself or herself, they haven’t got an answer. Most of the people in this world don’t even know ‘what does life means?’ Remember this, life as a human being is the most precious thing which god has gifted to us. Life is not just our activities like breathing, watching things, walking, listening, reading or so; neither it belongs to fulfilling our wishes, dreams and desires; life doesn’t mean running behind our aim and getting success; neither our emotions like smiling, crying, enjoying etc etc can define life. So, you will definitely ask me “What does life means?” Life is not a chapter of a book, neither it is a book, nor it is an author who writes books but characters, characteristics of those characters, circumstances which influence those characteristics, emotions, relations, achievements, struggle, feelings, thoughts…if you put together, you can say this means “Life”.
Now, the next question which is more important than the definition of “Life”, what does life’s purpose? Life consists of all the things which can be defined in words and can be seen or felt by every other person. There cannot be one person who can define “what is life’s purpose”. It varies from person to person. I can name here different people whom the world can never forget and they all fulfilled their life’s purpose. Albert Einstein, Mother Teresa, Neil Armstrong, Thomas Elva Edison, Socrates, Adolf Hitler and there are so many names whom we can’t even count and they all had different purposes and they were those who were really able to fulfill their life’s purpose. Many people say “Happiness”, “Peace of Mind”, “Satisfaction”, “Success” are our life’s purpose but how that can be? Do we really have control on these things? Can we always be happy, even if one dies in front of us? How can we get peace of mind, if we have so many responsibilities to fulfill? Can there be a person who is satisfied? only death can give an ultimate satisfaction to a person. And success, “success” is just like another day of our life which comes after every 12hrs time. Then how these things can be our life’s purpose?
Just read out the names I have mentioned and try to find out the similarities in them. Read that again and again. Let me tell you, all the names which I have mentioned here have done things just not for themselves; they have done things, for the world, for the society, for the people. May be they have just given a message to this world “There cannot be any thing IMPOSSIBLE in this world because everything is possible if one tries”. Do you think this lesson is not enough to do something for this world? In my view it matters more than anything.
I have a story to tell you here. I don’t remember the date or year but it was two or three years back in state of Andhra Pradesh, villagers have gone into the jungle for wood and one by mistake gone in deep forest and he saw a wooden hut covered by some leaves to protect from rain. When he was just trying to take wood from that hut because he thought its just a waste and it would be better to take the wood to home. An old man suddenly asked him:
Old Man: This is a very big jungle and you found only this hut to collect wood, there are so many trees, which you can take, then why you are breaking my hut.
The person stunned… he asked to that old man ”Is this your hut?”
Old man: “Yes”
Villager: “From how long you have been here?”
Old man: “Its more than 30 years”
The villager couldn’t believe this.
Villager: “What you are doing here in this jungle?”
Old Man: “Living my life like you are living yours.” The old man gave a big smile.
The conversation went long and lastly the villager left that place.
And very next morning, it was big surprise for that Old Man…let me tell you he was an ascetic. There was a big crowd out there. They all had brought so many things clothes, food, money to donate etc etc for him. After seeing all these things the old man said “I think, now this place is not worth living for me.” People wondered “Why so?” the old man replied “all these things which you have brought here for me, I really don’t need them. You should take these things to those who really need this, I am not the person who need this.” And after three months that old man left that place forever because that place was really not worth living for him. Hope you all have understood what I wanted to say. Do the things for those who really need that not for those who don’t need that.
Let me ask you one question, suppose there is a guy who have been identified as HIV +ve, nobody knows how long his life is, so what you would suggest to that person to do to fulfill his life’s purpose and what should be his life’s purpose? Just think of that. In my view he should be going door to door and letting everyone know to avoid any such thing which can cause this death before the person really dies. This way he may be able to save at least one life or may be more. But by running behind the success, happiness, satisfaction he will not achieve anything, just nothing.
May be it doesn’t sound good to you but I can ensure you “Happiness”, “Peace of Mind”, “Satisfaction”, “Success” cannot be anyone’s life’s purpose. And if you really want to know what’s your life’s purpose then you first need to come out of “I”, “me”, “my” and “mine” because if you have any of these then you can never achieve your life’s purpose, and you can never understand what does it meant for.


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Tu jo saath nahi....

Tu Khush Rahe...

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Past + Present + Furute = Life (Part II)

If you have not read my Part I of this thread please read that first.


You might not have heard about a mosque in Ujjain in state of Madhya Pradesh in India, which doesn’t have a base and is basically famous for its strong structure. The mosque was built by Mughal in 16th century. That mosque is built without having a base and known as “Bina Neev ki Masjid”. You may find sculpture of that not the mosque now. You must be thinking that, why I am talking about this here. Like everyone says, our past is our base on which our present or future is dependent. Now, tell me that. “Wasn’t there any present or future of that mosque? Was that architect of that mosque, a fool who constructed that?” No. a day we live, becomes our past from present and everyday we add a brick to build our life like the architect who builds buildings. It’s all about we, how we construct, how we design, what shape we give to our life. There are so many examples, which I can give you here, whose life suddenly turned from a disaster to an example. Remember Kalidasa, who was famous for his foolishness, but the day he realized about him, it changed his life. He became greatest poet of Sanskrit Language. Think of that “how a fool can become an example”.



Tulsidas, a great poet and the author of “Ramacharitamanasa”, whose life got changed from disaster to an example. Let me tell you the story: ‘Tulsidas was passionately attached to his wife. He could not bear even a day’s separation from her. One day his wife went to her father’s house without informing her husband. Tulsidas stealthily went to see her at night at his father-in-law’s house. This produced a sense of shame in Buddhimati, his wife. She said to Tulsidas, "My body is but a network of flesh and bones. If you would develop for Lord Rama even half the love that you have for my filthy body, you would certainly cross the ocean of Samsara and attain immortality and eternal bliss". These words pierced the heart of Tulsidas like an arrow. And those few words changed his entire life.



There are so many examples I can give you here. I am giving these examples to tell you that, if your past has not been good it doesn’t mean you should stop doing extreme things, you can and you should. Again I am saying that there are so many examples I can give you here. Let’s take another example. You might not have heard the name of German Philosopher Eckhart Tolle, who didn’t even attended school, who did not have any primary education. Whatever he studied, he studied at home only. You might not believe that he has “suicidal depression” for almost ten years and he also tried to commit suicide many times but “one night” changed his life. In his words “I couldn’t live with myself any longer. And in this, a question arose without an answer: who is the ‘I’ that cannot live with the self? What is the self? I felt drawn into a void. I didn’t know at the time that, what really happened was the mind-made self, with its heaviness, its problems, that lives between the unsatisfying past and the fearful future, collapsed. It dissolved. The next morning I woke up and everything was so peaceful. The peace was there because there was no self. Just a sense of presence or ‘being-ness’ just observing and watching”.



All these examples which I am giving here is just to tell you that, everyday which you are living or is in yours words “future” will become your past one day but don’t just let your present go out of your hands, don’t just let your present go like your passed day, don’t just let your present become a regretful past. Think of that architect who has been asked to built mosque without a base; think of Kalidasa and Tulisdaas, what changed their life; think of Ekhart Tolle who wanted to commit suicide and now is a teacher who teaches everyone ‘what does life means?’ What was that, which changed the old concepts of architecting, what changed a common person to a great author or writers, and what changed a person from committing suicide to become a teacher and a teacher who teaches the lesson of “Life”? There was no miracle happened with them, which changed their life, the only thing happened is, they realized “What they are? What they can do? What is life? And what is their life’s purpose?” They didn’t even think of their past, they just started living in their present and they lived every second of it. “They stopped counting of seconds they lived; they started counting of lives they lived in every second.” They learned lessons from their past and they made sure that they will not do any single mistake now, and that changed their entire life. But yes, mistakes are bound to happen, but those mistakes were another lesson to learn from and that made them from a common person to an example to the world, I must call it “An Example of Life”. I’ll again say “Do not hesitate to do mistakes, do not worry of doing mistakes and do not have fear of doing mistakes because you will do mistakes if starting “doing”, you can only avoid mistakes when you stop doing things”. Think of that architect who built the mosque, if he would have had fear, he wouldn’t have build that ‘architectural example’; if he would have a fear that the building may collapse, he wouldn’t have started that but he only had one thing in his mind “he will do it”, “he will make it” and “he will create a new example for sure”.



Like these architects or constructers who design or build huge building, we design or shape and construct our life. They use different building materials to build a building, and so we; we use our confidence, determination, willingness, experiences and past lessons and we construct our life. Don’t be unhappy with whatever you have, or whatever you not have because you still have your life to change the things, to change your life. And remember that, we cannot do things in future, we can only do things in our present, just start living your present and doing things to change yourself, to change your life, to make yourself better, although it doesn’t has an end because it only ends with you, with your life.



To be continued…





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Past + Present + Future = Life

It might sound weird but that’s a fact. Correct me if I am wrong…

Past:- Don’t know why, people always regret their past? I have seen many people living their life fullest, but whenever we ask about the days passed, they always share their bad experiences, may be there are only two or three bad experiences rest of his/her life have been fantastic but even then you will always get to listen about bad experiences. I could never understand this why? I must write here a big “WHY?” I think we human being has a very sort memory for storing good experiences but we have big storage of bad experiences and worst part is that, those bad experiences doesn’t get time to recall.

In my point of view, our past was our real teacher. The teacher who taught lessons of life, the teacher who made us a person like whatever we are right now, the teacher took us up to here where we are right now. But we always regret our past. Books might have taught us lesson about science, math, history etc etc… but tell me that “who taught us lesson about what is right and what is wrong; what is good or what is bad; difference between human and inhuman behaviors and so many things?” Was that our schools? Was that our books? No, we saw things happening around us and we learned so many lessons from our surrounding without attending any class or lecture, but still we regret our past. Why?

We might have done mistakes but remember the words of great scientist Thomas Edition who failed around 10,000 times in his experiment of ‘light’ but he succeeded one day; “My thousands of experiments taught what should not I do, and in other words they taught me what should I do next.” Remember about Abraham Lincoln who failed in business at the age of 21; was defeated in a legislative race at age 22; failed again in business at age 24; overcame the death of his sweetheart at age 26; had a nervous breakdown at age 27; lost a congressional race at age 34; lost a senatorial race at age 45; failed in an effort to become vice-president at age 47; lost a senatorial race at age 49; and was elected president of the United States at age 52. (Abraham Lincoln’s data is taking from book “You can win” by Shiv Khera)

“Mistakes”, again they are our teachers. Every living on this planet earth is born to do mistakes but one should not repeat the same because one who repeats its mistake is basically a fool or a definite looser. Ask yourself “Did you ever do a mistake intentionally or it just happened unknowingly?” Never regret your mistake because that mistake only turned your life into whatever it is right now. I must say this here “Ghar me andhera roshani band karne se nahi hota, ghar me andhera aankhein band karne se hota ha, aankhein bad kar lo tho din me damakta sooraj bhi andhere me doob jaye (switching off lights doesn’t create darkness, instead closing your eyes is the real source or reason)”

Present:- We only do things which we learned from our past. We too try new things but that turns into some new mistakes, may be not always but it does happen. We actually act on things, words, feeling, thoughts, imaginations… in present. And in present “we do things or I can say whatever things we do is basically our Present.”

Future:- Don’t know, I might not have answer for this word “Future”. Neither it’s our imagination nor the real truth because no one knows what will happen next. It’s very unpredictable, may be once or twice we can predict it but that doesn’t happen always. Somewhere, I find that, the philosophy written in Bhagavad Geeta is related to this also; “Karm kiye ja par fal ki chinta mat kar (Acting, or doing one's duties in life as per his/her dharma, or duty, without concern of results)”

Don’t know, if I am right or wrong but what I feel is somewhere I find that “Karma (Acting or Doing)” is our present and “Fal (results)” is our future. Remember this, its not we who will get the results of what we are doing right now but definitely the results will come and someone will get that for sure, it may not be the same person who did that, that can be anyone else but the result is definite.

Ask this to yourself “whatever you are doing is that for yourself only. Don’t you think of others, may be your loved ones?” May be one is selfish but at the same time he/he is selfless because he/she knows that whatever he/she is doing will result into. We all know, may be not everyone but most of us have a bank account and that is “Saving bank account”, what is that for? We are in job and we are paid for that, and so we are earning and this ‘earning’ is our present and keeping that in to “saving bank account” is our future. Now these days, this saving bank account has changed into ‘insurance policies’. Don’t you have a policy? If yes, then for what and for whom? Is that for yourself only?

Life, yes life is like a gardener, who ploughed his field, put seeds, fertilizers and water; that was all our past, now that seed is changed into a plant and we are nourishing that and keeping that safe, not for ourselves because if I would have been thinking of myself only, I would rather have preferred to buy fruits from market, I would not have preferred to put such a effort to get the fruits but we still do that; we do that for our future. Yes you heard that right “our future” not of “my future”. See, the history has this evidence that if the feeling of “my future” has come into one’s mind, he/she have always been disastrous for human being. Adolph Hitler, Nepolian Bonaparte, Paul Adams, Saddam Hussein, Osama Bin Laden are the examples who think of “my future”.


To be continued to Part II


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